#1 rainbow after rain
this is it. my first time ever writing in my new public diary. i honestly don't know where to begin.. there have been so many (negative) thoughts in my mind lately and this usually isn't me. i just feel so let down by society. after going through a long process of trying to get disability allowance i got judged and told to ''just get a job'' because ''i'm too young to be disabled''. even though i'm chronically ill to the point i ended up in the hospital almost dying, i have autism and ptsd and a bunch of other health issues at the young age of 25 already.. people, even doctors, don't seem to believe it's possible for me to be disabled because of my age. it's honestly so exhausting and i'm so tired of having to constantly stand up for myself. the fact that even with my official diagnosis and all my medical documents, i still had to go visit a government doctor to ''make sure i'm actually disabled'' fee...